I am a Pisces
"Pisces are spiritual in nature and emotional in expression. Pisces intuition and imagination are at once Pisces strengths and weakness. Pisces are attracted to the mystical side of things, and herein lay potential danger, for when pulled beneath the currents of everyday life, the realms of imagination and the subconscious offer little structure. Without the foundation of reality, it becomes easy to flounder and to lose direction. Pisces own salvation, however, can come from helping others less fortunate that yourself, especially those who have fallen into the misty realms of drugs, alcohol or spiritual confusion.The Pisces motto might be "Reality is just a shared illusion," and, in a higher sense this may be true. Nevertheless, you still need to survive in this "shared illusion" of reality, and sometimes this becomes a struggle for you compassionate Fish, who can feel the pain of the world as if it were your own. There's no easy escape for you. Your best path is to follow a creative or spiritual pursuit while doing your work in the real world. "
I am not a true believer in anything: always the sceptic. This is particularly true of horoscopes.
And yet, mine always strangely and painfully seems to have a ring of truth to it.
I do know my life has been one of a "tortured soul", always wrestling with the ultimate questions of meaning but never willing to sign on to some easy formula of Faith. My mind is rational, trained in philosophical discourse and yet I am drawn to the wisdom of the mystics with their intuitive experiences of what Rudolf Otto called the "mysterium, tremendum et fascinas"
(the mystery that is both terrifying and fascinating).
There are those who would say that if I only accepted "-------" on Faith, the pain would go away and all would be well (forgiven, full of Grace, acceptance, love). It is tempting but for me the price would be too high. For me. my essential humanity requires that I be the eternal Seeker, searching, evaluating, doubting, hoping to glimpse the Divine, yet always knowing it will remain a Mystery.
Such is my fate: always the pilgrim, never the keeper of the Temple.
I no sooner wrote this blog entry than i read the news article about Mother Teresa. It seems I am in good company. Letters Reveal Mother Teresa's Secret - AOL News