Happy Valentine's Day
It had been my intention of writing something for this day about the remarkable woman I have been privileged toromantically love in my life. Discomfort from being ill has made it difficult for me to focus well enough to put my ideas together. So this idea will incubate longer to perhaps emerge at another time.
In short, the women of my life have all been strong independent women who I always respected and continue to do so. Virtually all of them continue to hold a special place in my memory, a couple even occasionally live in my real life. I continue to love them and what we shared. I am never tempted to speak ill of them. I don't know if that says much of them or much about me. . . . perhaps, both. Only with one women did I ever end the relationship, not because of her but how she and her former husband treated their children.
The risk of loving independent women is that they never really ever need you. You cannot possess them. So they seem to have all outgrown me and moved on. One learns to cherish what we had and to celebrate what they went on to accomplish. I learned to absorb the pain of the loss of their presence in my life and the little bit of my soul torn away with each departure.
There is no love in my life these days. It would be nice if there was but I am content to live off my memories for now.
One news story refreshed my Valentine's Day. Perhaps, you saw it. It is about Gorilla love in the wild rarely witness in a face to face position. It left me smiling. Read for yourself. http://www.time.com/time/health/article/0,8599,1713215,00.html
Happy Valentine's Day!